A Charmed Life...

I never really have believed I live and lead a charmed life, but every now and then when I get nostalgic and start thinking back, I realize there's more truth to those three simple words than I ever knew.

I've struggled for years trying to think of a perfect title for an ultimate 'these are the days of my life' journal. I've had such names as "Mind Storms", which I quite like and "Creative Incentives", which I also quite like. Each kind of sums up sections of a life complex and bizarre.

Now I want to turn over a new leaf, kind of start fresh and new, be the person I am and not the person others want or think I should be. I've struggled many a time with this exact thing, and I believe as a person it's stymied me. I'd like to implement some more change and pray that this time I'll stick with it.

A charmed life...

Never believed I've lived such a life, am still living it each and every day, but now it some how seems fitting, suited to me and this moment in my life. A charmed life indeed for many things have happened to me, many things have been faced and each time I seem to grow STRONGER. I often say I'm not very lucky but if we're talking truth here I've been luckier than some. I may not be a millionaire, may not care for where I work, deal daily with feeling depressed and frustrated, some days spend hours just sitting and not sure what to do but to be brutally honest my life has been quite charmed. I've survived much, seen and experienced miracles, faced challenges head on, strive for happiness, built confidence pretty much from the ground up, been overly critical to a fault and have cycled repeatedly through disappointment, despair, anger, frustration...and I'm still here, still striving to become better. I have faced myself and know I'm flawed, still am, but have made progress in becoming a better person overall. I hope, not for the first time, that this time I can make this work but the only way to truly make this journal work for me is to be able to share ALL aspects of me online and off and that for me is a challenge in itself, so here's my next attempt...

A CHARMED LIFE